Well, that little experiment failed. I was miserable and scared a few days ago, and it was briefly relieved, but now I'm just miserable and scared again.
I see the value in not just waving off missteps in this sort of thing, because I get that it's a slippery-slope issue for many people. I don't, however, see a ton of value in kicking oneself over those missteps. I think that only makes for the more miserable and scared.
Look how far you got, and you screwed up once, and now you know you can get that far and probably further. You can.
You had 322 days and you can again - plus, you have experience and knowledge this time that you didn't last time. I still think your honesty and strength is amazing. I know you must be hurting at the moment, and that's horrible, and all I can say to that is *love*. Keep going xx
Stumbling is human, we all do it and you did it. Now its another day one. You can go to your meetings and talk and talk to people you trust, and fight (because you are a hell of a fighter).
I love you for your bravery and your honesty and I'm always going to have your back.
You stumbled...it happens to all of us. The important thing is that you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep moving forward. You'll be a wiser in moving forward I think because you can learn from your mistakes.
In looking for a quote for a story yesterday, I came across this one from Henry Rollins, and it resonated with me in my own life and I thought of it again in reading your post: "Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on."
You are strong and you can get through this. *hugs*
Tomorrow you'll have 1 day and the day after that you'll have two. I know you can do this, you're a strong person or you wouldn't have gotten 322 days ! *hugs and prayers for strength* <333
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Date: 2009-11-25 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-11-25 08:53 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2009-11-25 09:11 pm (UTC)Look how far you got, and you screwed up once, and now you know you can get that far and probably further. You can.
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Date: 2009-11-25 09:53 pm (UTC)You had 322 days and you can again - plus, you have experience and knowledge this time that you didn't last time. I still think your honesty and strength is amazing. I know you must be hurting at the moment, and that's horrible, and all I can say to that is *love*. Keep going xx
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Date: 2009-11-25 10:02 pm (UTC)Stumbling is human, we all do it and you did it. Now its another day one. You can go to your meetings and talk and talk to people you trust, and fight (because you are a hell of a fighter).
I love you for your bravery and your honesty and I'm always going to have your back.
<3<3<3 *hugs*
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Date: 2009-11-25 10:52 pm (UTC)One day at a time remember and the past is not important - it's the future that matters.
(((hugs)))
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Date: 2009-11-25 11:09 pm (UTC)I'm here if you need me.
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Date: 2009-11-26 12:15 am (UTC)In looking for a quote for a story yesterday, I came across this one from Henry Rollins, and it resonated with me in my own life and I thought of it again in reading your post:
"Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on."
You are strong and you can get through this. *hugs*
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Date: 2009-11-26 01:27 am (UTC)*hugs you*
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Date: 2009-11-26 02:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-11-26 03:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-11-26 06:50 am (UTC)Baby Steps.
You can do it. Now you know that you did it before.
You are stronger than you think. You can do it.
You are a brave little toaster...and we love you. ^_^
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Date: 2009-11-26 02:54 pm (UTC)You can do it. It's a stumble, but you did it once- you can do it again.
*sending you positive thoughrs*