This promotion possibility is making me mental.

[severity_softly]

I keep having these horrible bouts of self-doubt about this promotion thing. One minute I'm telling myself that I've been here the longest, I do a good job, and they know I can do it. The next moment I'm convinced that they won't promote me because I don't clean up as well as the boys do, or because I have a tattoo (I'm wearing a watch over it today), or because they just plain don't think I'm good enough. It doesn't help that they are already training someone on doing sales (that's what it looks like anyway), and he says he needs to learn to handle difficult customer complaints. If they are training him, why wouldn't they be training a new manager?

Plus the universe is conspiring against me. I'm not kidding. First of all, I was out sick a few weeks ago. Then the very day after I told them I was interested in a promotion, my alarm didn't go off and I was 30 minutes late. Friends assured me that since it wasn't normally a problem, they would probably overlook it. Then a regular guest blamed me for all this shit that went down when I wasn't even here. Then this crazy lady called and I talked to her about a suite. On my day off, C called to ask me about her because apparently this lady claimed I told her all day long that we didn't have ANY rooms available, and that I offered her $187 for two rooms, which is above what two rooms would cost right now, and hello? Random number much? I mean, I know none of these complaints are real and/or my fault, but it still makes an impressions none the less that suddenly I get two major complaints against me.

This is driving me crazy. I don't even know when the new hotel is supposed to be opening, and it's driving me crazy. Quite honestly, if someone else around here gets promoted to the front desk manager position and I don't, it will be fucking humiliating considering my seniority.

Someone distract me. Write me something. RP with me (I'm still in begging mode for IT Crowd). Anything. *makes blinky eyes*

Comments

[mcgarrygirl78.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry all of this is going on. Work is kinda busy right now but you are on my mind, in my thoughts. Shit totally happens, especially in your business, I know people in hotel management, but I think they are definitely going to give you a management position. Just keep doing your best and it will shine brighter than all the shit. Cuz the shit will happen no matter what position you're in. I totally have faith : )

ilu *hugs*

[nebula99.livejournal.com]

Self doubt is normal - I got the job I went for but part of me is still waiting for them to say "ack, we made a mistake".

And check your inbox. *g*

[katewallace.livejournal.com]

*hugs* This will pass, I know it's hard to think that right now, but it will. And I have confidence that you'll get the position. The training thing..maybe they don't want to be training two people at once, and they're waiting a little longer to start training a new manager.We try not to have too many trainees at the same time because of the havoc it wreaks with the labor percent..they'll call and say "Your salary dollars are too high!" And I want to say right back "It's because we can't just get trained people out of a vending machine..all dressed up and ready to go!" Things will work out..you're in my thoughts and prayers every night. *more hugs* :)