Failure farm!

[severity_softly]

So been thinking, where do failures congregate? I'm the only one I know. My coworkers are all either in a career they want, or are seriously working toward something. My whole family has led good lives. Maybe if I was around other failures, I wouldn't be so depressed. Maybe I should get a shitty, minimum wage retail job and live with all the other people whose dreams are dying.

Hey, maybe that's how I can eventually be my own boss. I can build a farm where me and the the other losers can roam free with our own kind. We could invite school children to come and see us, ask us questions. It would be like Scared Straight, but just on how not to waste your life.

Heh.

So today was long. I worked fewer hours than normal, but it dragged. It always does. But I got to snuggle a bit with a sweet, special needs dog. You know, they say spending time with animals can help your emotional well-being. Maybe the moments I get to spend free time with the dogs and cats will help offset the emotionally damaging parts.

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Comments

[stasia]

*pouncy hugs*

I guess my real question here is, "How do you define failure?"

Because I worry about stuff like this as well, but it's different for everyone and I don't know how to try to offer help and thoughtful conversation without a base point.

(But mostly, HUGS!!)

Stasia

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

Lol... Well, I'm 33, have dropped out of college several times, have not successfully quit drinking, I have serious self-esteem issues which keep me in a shitty position with peers and coworkers, my job sucks and I'm pretty sure any job I'm qualified for would, I don't have RL friends, I am creatively blocked, which keeps me from pursuing some things I want, and those things are constantly changing (because I never stick with anything long), and when I do get inspired creatively, fear of rejection takes hold and stops me. I'm just stuck in the same pattern I've been in for at least a decade, and I know working on the mental health issues would help, but I always eventually fuck up any progress I make there, too. [/rant]

*sigh* Thank you. *hugs*