Pinks fists of doom! Feel my chewy justice!

[severity_softly]

Got a lot accomplished today! :) I returned a Xmas sweatshirt and got a nice shirt instead. Got my driver's license renewed (the husband paid). We got the dogs (and cat) a giant dog bed with a Xmas gift card, and currently only the cat and one of the dogs is using. The second dog seems entirely unsure of this new addition to our apartment. LOL Oh, and we got 50% off a heart shaped box of chocolates, and Cadburry Creme Eggs! Omgguystheyaresooogood.

...Aaaaaaand I just lost all will to finish writing this. It was supposed to be an upbeat post, but I've suddenly hit a wall of depression again. Fun times. My sponsor and Innerslytherin both have told me that my days off seem the hardest for me. It sure as hell isn't because I miss my job. I thought maybe it was because I wasn't keeping myself occupied, so I went out and did a lot of stuff I'd been putting off, but that doesn't seem to have staved off the depression either. Maybe next Wednesday I try exercise? *sigh* I need more local friends. And I need a bipolar tag. Why don't I already have one?

Dude, do I tag this with "yayz!" or "woes" or both? *headdesk*

Comments

[carolinecrane.livejournal.com]

I would say let's get together Wednesday after work, but I committed to meeting coworkers downtown. I hate going out with coworkers after work; we just talk about work the whole time. Why do people want to do that when they're not getting paid?

Anyway, Wednesdays are *usually* good for me. This weekend is kind of crowded, but if you want to hang out, let me know.

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

We do need to get together, actually, since we didn't get to properly talk on Saturday. Whatever we do, it needs to be free. And your schedule is busier than mine, so what works for you? I'm off at 3 the days I work, then I'm off Wed/Thurs. Pick a time. :)

[carolinecrane.livejournal.com]

PS: I mentioned this in my journal but you probably didn't see it -- I am helping to coordinate a new writing group in town. Our first meeting is on Saturday at 6:00 pm. If you're interested, you are welcome to be my 'plus one.' It's short notice, I realize, so if you'd rather come to the next meeting or whatever, I'll keep you posted on when we get together again.

[innerslytherin]

LOL I asked her yesterday if she'd seen your post about that, but it was in a long email of stuff and she probably forgot to look.

[carolinecrane.livejournal.com]

And I have been meaning to e-mail her about it, but work has been so busy and I never have any time after work and I am a total failboat when it comes to e-mail most of the time. (I have no idea why I think I can help coordinate anything, but I'm going to give it a try.)

[innerslytherin]

(I have no idea why I think I can help coordinate anything, but I'm going to give it a try.)

LOL Oh how well do I know that feeling! But being willing to do something is better than someone who doesn't even try.

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

I've been doing much better about reading the personal journals on my flist, so I did see that. I just didn't menton it because I thought I might be butting in on something. Is that weird? That's probably weird.

Anyway, Saturday should be fine for me. I'll just double check with the husband (though I think he works till 6, it shouldn't be a problem). I barely have a social life, so short notice is almost never an issue for me as of right now.

Anyway, is the writing group getting together to write? Or to talk about writing? Or both?

[innerslytherin]

Short notice is only a problem when someone's wifey doesn't know about it and gets all jealous that she isn't in K'ville yet. >.>

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

*pets* All the more reason to save really hard and get your ass down here asap.

[innerslytherin]

Well, I posed two questions to you regarding the days off. I asked if it was because you weren't doing enough on those days, but I also asked if you were placing too much expectation on those days off. Maybe you expect your days off to be these grand amazing wonderful days, when honestly they're just a couple of days that you're allowed to relax if you want.

I don't know, I'm not saying either thing is right. Just a couple of things for you to think about.

[innerslytherin]

PS I know I have no room to talk, but I still believe that you should be doing at least 20 minutes of aerobic exercise several days a week. Just get those endorphins going a bit and get your blood pumping.

I never feel like exercising, but when I was going to the gym five times a week, I really did have more energy and enthusiasm.

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

The latter might be the case, but idek how to tell if it is, let alone how to fix it. That's the more difficult of the two problems to fix.

[innerslytherin]

Yeah, I know. And I don't know how to help either. :/ Maybe if you intentionally try to accomplish one thing every day that you work, like "today I will clean the bathroom sink after work" and "today I will clean off the coffee table after work", then on your days off, you'll be more grateful that you're NOT doing that shit?

LOL

[mcgarrygirl78.livejournal.com]

I like that you chose to add yayz! to the tags....its important to celebrate every yay....fuck yeah!

OMGZ, is so jealous of the writing group and the cream eggs. I totally scarfed the 2 I had this weekend, but in Rite Aid today they were setting up the Easter Stuff, a month and a half before the big day but all the better for us, am I right?

I agree with exercise and expectations and everything else. I do walking as my means of exercise. When I walk to and from work is when I get my best writing ideas too. I get my heart pumping, get that "me" time, and get to listen to my iPod and the characters in my head too. Its like a win-win-win.

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

Mmm, I brought my last creme egg to work. Yum.

I need to get back into playing "tennis" with the husband when it warms up. And maybe do yoga while it's still cold.

[nebula99.livejournal.com]

Cadbury Creme Eggs are the food of the Devil! Bleurrgghh.

[nebula99.livejournal.com]

Oh, and exercise = endorphins which might help. I never think "Oh, I wish I hadn't done that" after a run, whereas I can talk myself out of it before I do it. If that makes any sense.

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

No, it does make sense. I ALWAYS feel better when I exercise, but getting motivated to do it is another story.

[nebula99.livejournal.com]

You could have one of those devil-feeding hideous creme eggs waiting for you at the end?

[severity-softly.livejournal.com]

You are clearly insane. Clearly.

[kosmickway.livejournal.com]

I think one of the absolute WORST moods a bipolar patient can have is when you're flailing between one and another and you just end up bouncing back and forth. When mine was at its worst I was swinging between moods within the space of an hour.

One that's even worse than that, for me, is when you feel like you WANT to go do something (shop, hang out with friends, whatever) but you're so antsy, irritated, or upset you can't settle down to it. It's that weird dichotomy of wanting to be around someone but not wanting to take the energy to entertain, or wanting to get some real restaurant food but not wanting to have to get up and drive there. No good ever comes of that kind of mood.